123456 SWITCH!

Ok, So I've been busy.. Busy doing what? Um.. Everything and yet nothing. I seriously live the most singular boring life. It is a never ending stream of blah blah blah blah.... I'm the proverbial goldfish.. "oh look a castle!!" <swim swim swim> "OHHHH a plant!!" <swim swim swim> "oh look a castle!!" <swim swim swim> "OHHHH a plant!!" <swim swim swim> The biggest news in my life is the theatre I work at is finally going digital.. This theatre was reopened in 1944, and was last renovated in the early 80's. We needed this. It's going to make my easy job slightly easier, but I'm willing to accept that. <hugs smiles> On a more personal note,  At this point, vanilla is exciting for me. It has been... almost 9 months of a dry spell.. and the saddest part? The last relationship put me so far off of sex that I honestly don't miss it. What I do miss is the friendship.. the hanging out.. watching bad movies with someone who shares my twisted sense of humor.. waking up next to someone.. I miss talking about random crap until the sun comes up, and then us both bitching about how tired we are for the entire day. I miss my friend. I don't miss the mind games, the possessiveness, the clingyness. I like not being held accountable for EVERY MINUTE of my life every day. I like my phone not going off every 5 seconds. I like being able to not talk for hours and not being pestered about "what's wrong". Hell, I love the freedom. Was my ex an insecure control freak? Oh hell to the fuck yes. I finally unblocked him on Facebook.. and every time I see his picture, I feel like throwing up. So at this point, I'm not sure if it's therapy or torture. However, I'm tired of running from my mistakes. Did I make a mistake? Not the one people think I made. My last realtionship never should have ever happened. Do I blame social media? No. I blame myself. If I had made more of an effort on the relationship I was in, I never would have fallen for such a lame brain act. But, mistakes are our learning curve.. and mine is a doozy.. or a cliff. But once I jumped off that cliff, my God I felt better when I hit the bottom. :) So here's to the next learning curve and the next cliff. :)